I recognize the feeling: I am sinking back into depression. I am not quite sure what thought i am ruminating on but “i am not good enough” is certainly there. That, too, was one reason for my other blog post (sometimes, it’s nice to have two blogs…).
And i keep hearing the Jiddu Krishnamurti quote:
It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.
Putting this all together, i understood (again) that my depression – maybe most depression – is a systems disease. Like civilization diseases of the physical body caused by our bizarre civilized lifestyle, our alienation from nature and each other is causing mental diseases. I just wish i knew the cure!
About an hour after i wrote the above, my glance fell on the book title of one of the Cheri Huber books i am reading: “What you practice is what you get!” OH! So, if i practice self-judgment and undermining my confidence, i get shame! Ha! Funny how that works… Yes, it’s not just systemic… There are things i can do in every moment to keep myself out of the hole. Well, and a good cry helps, too!