After ranting about the blindness within self-help modalities to the systemic issues, i started reading an article about Naomi Klein. As i was reading the article, i could hear the voices starting, actually continuing, to tear me down: Well, she is writing about systemic issues and is doing something! Well, okay, you’re writing about those issues, too, but she has an audience. If you’re lucky, your friends are going to read your stuff.

I recognize the feeling: I am sinking back into depression. I am not quite sure what thought i am ruminating on but “i am not good enough” is certainly there. That, too, was one reason for my other blog post (sometimes, it’s nice to have two blogs…).

And i keep hearing the Jiddu Krishnamurti quote:

It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.

Putting this all together, i understood (again) that my depression – maybe most depression – is a systems disease. Like civilization diseases of the physical body caused by our bizarre civilized lifestyle, our alienation from nature and each other is causing mental diseases. I just wish i knew the cure!

About an hour after i wrote the above, my glance fell on the book title of one of the Cheri Huber books i am reading: “What you practice is what you get!” OH! So, if i practice self-judgment and undermining my confidence, i get shame! Ha! Funny how that works… Yes, it’s not just systemic… There are things i can do in every moment to keep myself out of the hole. Well, and a good cry helps, too!